A NEW START

I am sorry for these months of discontentment and a chasing after 'all these things', forgetting that You know I need them; also forgetting that I need You more than life itself.

Bring back to me that childlike amazement of all Your doings within and around me.

Help me once again be at rest, knowing that I have a Father in heaven who watches over me and provides for all my needs.

Lets start afresh.

"... for your love is more delightful than wine." Songs 1:2

Yes, I will delight in You.

NO MORE, NO LESS

I am like someone who has lost a big part of myself and not have anything to replace what I have lost.

I no longer have exams to study for and a graduation to look forward to.
I no longer have to attend music practices and play guitar in church.
I no longer am expected to attend OCF or my church's girl's prayer meet.
I no longer can hang out with my friends in the city whenever and however.
I no longer can introduce myself as a Medical Student.

And somehow, being able to say "I'm the doctor looking after you today", the big pay that I get every second Wednesday, having a car of my own... just falls so far below making up for what I lost (and am losing) in this transition.

But I am concious that when I leave this earth too, I bring none of my titles or roles with me.

Who am I?

A student? A doctor? A good friend? A musician? A cell leader? Maybe even a full time church/religious organization worker, a wife, a mother... one day?

But as when I leave this earth, I will be and still be

a child of God Most High

No more, no less.