I was watching a movie entitled One Night With The King, which depicted the story of the biblical Queen Esther. The part where an answer was demanded of Esther as to whether she would intercede on behalf of the Jews was particularly moving, and somewhat nostalgic. To see the very famous verses come alive on screen...
"For if you remain silent at this time, relief and deliverance for the Jews will arise from another place, but you and your father's family will perish. And who knows but that you have come to royal position for such a time as this?" Esther 4:14
Esther then bade the Jews to fast, after which she will go to the king unsummoned, eventhough it was against the law, the penalty of which was death unless the king held out his sceptor to spare the lawbreaker's life. And there was a 15 seconds pause, before Esther said those very words (and I waited, not knowing if they would come, but surely she must say it!)...."And if I perish, I perish".
Why was I so stirred by those words? I guess because it reflected absolute trust and surrender to the will of the Almighty, something I'm not sure I could manage. I wonder if there would be a moment in my life worthy of those words? But even where I am, I'm afraid that a lot of times I remained silent when I shouldn't have. And the message is that if we remain silent then He will use someone else, and pass us by. Do I want to just let Him pass me by?
Absolute trust and surrender. I want to be able to say, "If I perish, I perish" in the little moments of everyday life. And who knows but that I have come to this island for such a time as this? Although I don't know why I'm here and feel continually lost.
